Make your own Revolution!

And so...New Years Day was a bit of a wash-out in the traditional sense that NY day shouldn't be. 7322_130590936049_508821049_2954027_6062600_n I was partially hungover and not speaking to the VERY hungover boy after having a row at three in the morning. I didn't eat anything all day apart from the paving slab of chocolate he bought me for Christmas and a korma for dinner and finally, I stayed in bed ALL day and watched Back to the Future, Big and the Horse Whisperer. Before the year had already started I had broken the vow of not drinking as much alcohol, not eating junk food, being full of love and being more active. But instead of feeling crap about it, it was actually quite nice to rebel against and I've decided to start my resolutions from Tuesday when I go back to work and I've whittled down the paving slab of chocolate just a lil' bit more.

As a non-conformist kinda gal I think it makes more sense for me to start an inner REVOLUTION from all of my resolutions instead of setting myself up for a big fall like I usually do. In 2010 I picked up some habits that I know I need to work on. So, I know I am best within myself when I am inspired and that is the word for me for 2011-INSPIRED! It sounds mighty cheesy-which I am anyway-but I feel happier internally when I am buzzing about something.....

-4 Internal affairs.....

I spent 2010 not feeling very much like myself. After losing my job the year before, I lost all of my creative confidence too and gave up on looking for the very few jobs available to design in the lingerie industry I loved very much, and worked so hard to flourish in initially. And then, there was a glimmer of hope. In August I swallowed my self-pity and fear and went to an interview for a post in Australia, which I got. Challenging myself opened my eyes again and I began sketching again as well as almost finishing writing my book. Although it later fell through just five weeks before we were due to fly-the recession hit Australia!-I now know that I have to make the steps to make things happen, because if I don't, I just don't function.

It's easy to feel sorry for myself but unless I swallow my pride, it won't change. It is not going to be easy to stop beating myself up with a big stick even if things are not my fault, but I realise the universe cannot deliver anything unless I aim and say what I want, and what I need. I'm speaking to the boy again too btw, after doing just that.

crystal-renn Body Talks...

I am never going to be happy with my bingo wings but I am never going to be a size 10 either. I have no-one else to blame, I bloody love food and I am not going to penalise myself for doing so, but I am going to go back to my old single ways with the relationship I share with it, because although my beloved skinny-minny man can eat trifle and cheesecake for dessert every day, I cannot. So instead of living pleasurably in a chocolate dipped relationship, I am going for a half-dipped one. I am going back to calorie counting at Glamour diets, which lets me know if I fulfill my five-a-day and I am going back to my three times a week gym habit, the one I had before I spent all my evenings curled up on the sofa watching TV. Its not as cosy, but I know I will feel better stepping outside of my comfort zone and feeling fabulously glamourous at size 14. I love Khloe Kardashian, Immodesty and Kelly Brook and Crystal Renn before they lost the curves, so I am aiming to treat mine a bit better.

roman_holiday_ver3 Recessionista-the new quality....

I am now working in a job that pays the bills rather than paying for a new YSL handbag which at first was a hard balance to grasp but I am going to keep trying to stop frittering away my money, Ebay-ing where necessary and perfecting my Nigella-esque skills, rather than eating out. I am giving up going out and getting drunk for holidays-with NY and Rome booked, it makes me feel better having something to look forward to rather than dying of a hangover on the sofa with no pennies in my old YSL handbag!

164536_480799490722_52054600722_6486281_6979227_n Keep getting inspired...

I love; Writing-Its time to pitch! Designing-keep on drawing! Cooking-I just love it! Keeping in touch - I need to do it with all my friends around the world but also closer with my family and friends. Treating myself to time - It might take an hour to blow dry my hair, it might take an hour to do yoga but they both make me feel better. Reading blogs - my favourite finds last year, are; Frou Frou fashionista, from the girls who own a fab lingerie store called Faire Frou Frou in California. Pretty pictures and luscious lingerie a-go-go, it makes me smile and lust everytime. Rock n Roll Bride-No, I'm not getting married but I heart this blog because its cool, believes in LOVE and beauty and is mighty pretty to look at.. The Man Repeller-its quirky, funny and always brings something new to the table. The Fabric of my life-Modern Kraftwerk for the modern girl.. Bakerella-for my lucky fella. And me, when I have been good all day!

I think that's enough for now, but I would love to hear what you are going to do to feel sparkly in this new year?!