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The promise of a new year always fills us with a sense of excitement and anticipation for what's to come, in the same way as when I open a brand new journal, I'm all kinds of excited 'bout what adventures, thoughts and feelings I'm going to fill it with, but the last few days, on top o' all that new year anticipation and excited- ness, I've been feeling jittery - I have SO many big, beautiful things to accomplish this year, that my belly flips from super-excited to crazy - underlined three times - anxiety in nano-seconds. The good news is that I'm not the only one, The Barefoot Doctor, who I've mentioned a gazillion times and will continue to mention a LOT mainly because I heart him x 1000, sent out a newsletter with an explanation o' this jittery feeling - we're totes connected.
He said: "...if you have a sense you have to raise your game and you're wondering whether you're up to it, seems to me you're not alone.
The key lies in loving the jitters, then confidently forming a vision of the actual desired outcome to whichever situation you're thinking about, and to invest your chi and presence in that vision, knowing that what you focus on grows..."
See? This dude is THE shit.
So that's what I'm doing. It seems that double, triple, and even quadrupole dating, my big, beautiful effalump-sized dreams and goals for 2012 is proving to be rather anxiety-inducing - clearly I would be rubbish at having an affair - so I am calling them all up individually and I'm scheduling us all a li'l get-to-know-each-other 'date time' on the calendar. It seems 'til now, I've had trouble simply dating one idea at a time, I'm an idea ho, and that's just silly because while Lisa-love is infinite and ever-reaching, spreading myself - pun totally intended - so vast and wide can sometimes makes me a li'l, well...sloppy with the idea love. Both myself and my date lose interest and the potential of a fire-starting relationship o' awesome love stuff turns to a mouthed 'I'll call you' as I shut the door behind them on their way out, and we all know how that one ends, right?
So this year, I'm giving all my projects and ideas their own designated 'chi time', a time where I light a few candles and over a delicious meal of magic, inspiration and chutzpah, I'll simply 'make out' with that one particular idea/project. We'll spend a little time whispering sweet nothings to each other, we'll whirl like dervishes together and then we'll, y'know, get to it. We'll do it. We'll make the magick happen. Yes, there's no question I will date other ideas, there are far too many delicious ones in my head NOT to, but from here on in, I will no longer entertain the concept of a daily idea threesome/foursome/infinite-some. I am now a one-idea-at-a-time kinda girl, giving every single one the dedicated Lisa-love it deserves - let me tell you, the Lisa-love is goooood shit - giving it the opportunity to unfold it's potential, share it's possibility and woo me with it's wonder.