So yesterday, after having a little social media break over the weekend, I went onto FB and I got a little bit pissed about being told how to 'think' + 'show up' in response to news/society/politics.So I posted a day 23, slightly ranty pre-menstrual response.
"If I post a picture of a puppy it doesn't mean 'I don't care' + that I'm not doing anything about the issues that are in the news. If I post about politics + news events that I care passionately about/and or cause an emotive response in me, it doesn't mean I can't laugh + smile about the good things in life too. If I choose to pray/meditate/dance to deal with the harshness of life, I can. If I choose to get all angry + activist, I can. If I share memories of Love + happiness, it doesn't mean I don't care about the injustice either. What's with the sudden policing + controlling of people's emotions, spirituality + dealing mechanisms? NOT COOL." Now, I think fundamentally it's the fault of social media itself. Social media is a place where we only share thoughts + opinions in certain amounts of words making full conversations + debates much harder because the nuances of in-person-ness are lost. But honestly, I believe it's up to each individual how we use + negotiate FB. The same ways it's up to the individual on how they navigate life.
For example, I'm fully aware that I'm in a privileged position to be sat in my white skin, in my nice home being able to have an opinion right now. I'm also aware that I'm a woman who has been shamed into not having a voice, and the last thing ANY of us, men or women, needs right now is being told HOW to show up and then being called out for showing up in the 'wrong' way. I shared a post that Rose Skye wrote in our online SHE Power Temple last week as it provoked a conversation between Rich and I that showed up some truths about myself I didn't entirely like. I didn't say 'think this' or 'let me educate you' or 'this is the RIGHT way' I offered it up simply as a conversation starter. Offering support, guidance, your own thoughts + opinions? Hell yes. We NEED that. More than ever. Telling people what to think + feel + how to act? Not so much.
I'm not 'spiritually bypassing' if I chose love over activism. I'm not being unspiritual if I choose activism over passiveness. I choose love AND activism. I choose to watch trash TV to numb the pain sometimes, while other times I'll take to the street to protest. What's happening in the world right now hurts my heart, I'm sure it's hurting ANYONE with a heart and we're all dealing the best we can, so lets cut each other a little bit of slack as we navigate these crazy times, yeah?
I've been called out when I share pictures of happy memories by people telling me that because of the 'position I'm in' (whatever the fuck THAT means) I should give more of a shit about what's going on in the world. If I DO share about what's going on in the world + my views on it (which I do loudly + often) I get called out for daring to have a voice. I get told I'm white + should be grateful, yet I'm treated differently on a daily basis because I have a womb. I get told to speak out + make my voice heard, yet women that have gone before me have been burned + persecuted for doing exactly that.
It's all a big Kali ma mash up out there right now, and we're all trying to find our way, but as a cyclic woman, there are some days where I want to shout, cry, rage + scream loudly about the injustices of the world (and I do) and there are times when the pain of it all really hurts + my way to deal is prayer + meditation, so I do that too.
Through it all I'm trying to stay rooted in my own truth. I was speaking with my friend Ani yesterday morning + she said all any of us can do is "Check ourselves, see if we're being a div + change/act accordingly....with maximum love and compassion." I'm making it my mantra right now. The world is messy, we're messy + all any of us can really do is show up in our wholeness where we're at right now, and knowing that the SHE scape - our personal landscape at any given moment as a woman - is subject to change. As you learn more, it may change. As you cycle through a different phase of your menstrual cycle/season of nature/life cycle or when you experience something joyful/traumatic or one of the gazillion possible emotions in between, it'll change.
The bottom line is, I WILL fuck up + disappoint people. Guess what? So will you. And it's ALL okay. We've got to make it okay. We've got to make it okay to be this messy + not have any of it figured out. We've got to have total, fierce + deep compassion for each other as we fuck it up, as we struggle to find the right words, inevitably say + do the wrong things + upset each other during these 'interesting times'. Til then, I'm going to dance furiously, (have you read crazy times call for furious dancing? it's SO good.) make love + do all the things that make my heart womb + heart light the fuck up. How 'bout you?